just special

if someone you knew, who has been there for you for years, but their real potential as a friend never really showed itself, because neither of you had really experienced life for long enough - if they died today...what would you do? of course you'd be sad, but what would you actually do? would you change your relations with others so that they knew just how much they have meant to you over the years? would you be a better listener, more astute to what others were going through around your little world, would you sing at the top of your lungs when you're happy in their presence, or cry when you're sharing the hardest moments of your life with them?

those emotions you take for granted when you're in the presence of your favourite people are melded into the moment, all apart of the greater experience, and you ride it, with them.

but what if those people are taken away from you? what if when those ones who have been sewn under your skin are no longer around?

well, you learn more about who you are. you're taken to a place where you've never had those people to cushion the blow when you're lonely, or sad, or just even needing to talk. you start to think about life more, i mean really think, of what you want - as a career, as a lover, as a friend, as down-time, as a hobby, as a good time. your beliefs are still your own, but it's like they've been trapped in a world you've always known. don't get me wrong, this can be an amazing thing, but if you as a person are transient - and we all know everything changes - your outside may not match what's going on inside.

i've gone through these hurdles and a few personal trials this year to realise the value of true friends in this world - the cuddly ones, the ones you've known since you were three. they know you, and you know them, to the point where you can read eachother's minds. you do everything together. they're the first person you think of when you're asked to bring a friend along. when you talk, it's like you pick up where you left off, like every fucking time.

i'm lucky to say i have that friend, and she means the absolute world to me and life would just be dull without her. but i don't always have to be with her. although i want to, i don't need to, and that's important to have. it means you don't O.D. on them....

I know how much i mean to her, and she knows how much she means to me.

it's as simple as that.

please don't live your life with others oblivious.

for my girl, my sister.

xx